Please send all of your love to Tiny Dancer…

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Good evening everyone! I come this evening asking for love for a beautiful girl who is needing all of our love. Aiden called me this morning. When Aiden calls, I don’t question…I just show up, the best I can to answer the call, whatever it may be.

Her name is Tiny Dancer, and She needs all of our love. Details are not relevant right now…only that we love this girl, with all we’ve got through the night.

Aiden asks for your love and I post on his  behalf, as he does not have thumbs to type…Aiden says “Please love And dance Tiny Dancer back to life and health…like you loved me back home.”

So, if you could, do what you do to send our girl some love. Love is critical to her recovery and I know we can love her through this! Thank you each and every one!

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I would love for you to be my next client!

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Good evening everyone! I just wanted to stop in and say thank you and that I appreciate you so much! I really do. This webpage is a work in progress and I am learning, slowly, how to work on it myself. I am redefining my business and deciding what direction to take my work. I am looking to take on a few more clients, in a limited number of weekly slots. Maybe you are my next client? I would really love to hear how I can help you!

Many if you may remember Aiden, and Aiden says to tell you all hello and thank you for helping him to get back home to his family! Aiden is doing great and sends you all his love!

I love the work that I have done for the past several years! Being an LMT is an amazing gift! Using that gift to facilitate healing in those who need it most is priceless to me. Animal Commuication work is my greatest God-given gift, as I just have a knowing and an acceptance of that knowing. I have recently developed the confidence I need, as an Animal Communicator, to share my gifts, without worrying so much about what people may or may not think of me and what I have to offer. If you need me and I can help, We can set up an appointment. If I can’t help you, I will say so, and try to find you someone who can help. You may as well call me and ask, right?

My passion is in my energy work and in my ability to connect with those who others cannot hear or reach. My work is evolving daily, as I speak their messages and honor them in my willingness to share their messages. I am driven by the desire to be of service and I know I have a gift that many need and do not possess themselves. That is why I am here, to help you!

As an Animal Reiki Master, I have been practicing for many years, the art of trusting my instincts and intuition, to such a degree that I do not question anymore, my sacred and cherished gifts.

I became an Ordained Minister, to officiate my Mom’s funeral if need be. Thank God, I didn’t need to use my gifts that day, from the pulpit. I was able to honor my Mom, as her daughter and I was beyond grateful when someone else answered that call to officiate.

I have been in customer service, to some degree, my whole life. I love interacting with people and talking to people, and getting to really know and feel and love pepole. I also love my solitude and my space and my quiet, in the times in between, so that I can hear and meditate and pray and absorb as much musical medicine as possible.

All of these are tools in my tool box and I want to continue to master my crafts. I also want to add something more, something needed and valued and me. Like me, more than I am right now…

I came here this evening, to ask you all of there is something that you need from me, something you see in me or something you get from me, that you think will make me better? I want to be better. Actually, I want to be the best, at what I do. I need you to tell me how I can help you? I just thought I would put it out there, for those of you who need something you’ve not found. Maybe I can help somehow? Feel free to contact me and we can discuss what I can do for you. Are you having issues with your animals and you cannot hear them? I can help. Do you need end of life/quality of life care for your animal? That is my specialty. Do you need some loving care to help you to help your companion? Please reach out if you need someone who can help you to hear and honor the needs of those who cannot tell you themselves. I also work on a case by case basis on animals with special needs and vet referrals.

Have a wonderful evening and thank you for taking the time to read my post this evening! Much love and good vibes headed your way! I look forward to hearing from you! Love, love, love…

 

Calling for love and prayers for our girl Morgan…

Good morning everyone! Happy Saturday!

I want to ask each of you to say a prayer for Morgan this morning. Morgan is my very dear friend, and she is with calf. It would seem that her calf may be trying to come earlier than expected.

Morgan, a killer whale friend of us all in Spain, desperately needs our love, our support and all our prayers.

Morgan’s release from capture was denied and Morgan remains in captivity. Morgan’s baby calf, named Marne, ( I am not sure what they will name her, but Morgan gave me her baby’s name very early on) will also be born into captivity.

Marne, as the meaning came to me is this. A girls name of Latin and Greek derivation. The name Marne is “from the sea; sparkling and shining”. An alternate form of Marina (Latin):from Marine. Marmara (Greek): The Sea of Marmara.

To me, this came, many months ago, when I began my work with Morgan. Morgan and I work together, to find peace within ourselves in a world of some pretty dark darkness.

I ask each of you to take a moment and stand in solidarity with me, for Morgan and Marne, as they find their way in the darkness of captivity, into he light of all of our love.

Please help me to love Morgan and Marne, with all of our hearts right now. Please say a prayer and do whatever you do, to send love and light into the darkest, and seemingly unreachable places. Let us light Morgan and Marne up with all of our love and light in this moment, together, as we say together…”I love you Morgan.” And all together again please, “I love you Marne”…let’s make sure they feel us in Spain, from wherever we are standing in this moment.

We are all just swimming each other home…let’s all swim with Morgan and Marne today, in love and light…in solidarity and in hope…

Thank you. Truly, thank you so much for taking the time this morning, to love our friends far away…to love our friends near and far…now let’s get swimming, shall we?

I am calling on us all to use the buddy system again…

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Good evening everyone! I cannot help but be struck by the number of people posting for suicide awareness and prevention on their timelines. We are in the midst of some difficult times for sure. We are all trying to find small ways to help and to reach those who are sinking in their own depths. Many of us, while drowning in depths of our own.

What do we do with all of this despair? Where do we put all of this pain? How do we extinguish this raging fire that is taking so much from us? Depression hurts. How many of you, diagnosed or undiagnosed, suffer from depression? How many of you don’t believe that depression is real? Depression is real and depression does hurt. For how many of us, is depression something we ever even talk about? I mean, really talk about…because when I hit my depths, I often cannot even speak. I find myself suspended in a lifeless and catatonic place that I cannot get out of and next to no one can get into. Depression hurts, doesn’t it?

Suicide is real and many of us know that first hand. Suicide hurts. Suicide, for all that we manage to salvage, leaves such horrific loss for those left behind.

Some people call suicide selfish and I cannot help but wonder why that is? Why would a plea so desperate and so final and so dramatic be lessened to a selfish decision, by an unknowing or a knowing all to well, individuals assessment? Calling someone selfish for killing themselves, while there may be truth in that from our perspective, seems like a man who terrorizes gay men because of his own unresolved feelings for men, and making absolutely no correlation between the two. We drive our own hate. We are raging down the road in our own fear, obliterating anyone in our way who doesn’t fit into our idea of how we think they should be. Why is that? Why do we feel it appropriate to judge others? Why do we also feel comfortable to be in the juror seat? We weren’t all born prosecutors, were we? When did we decide who gets a fair trail and who doesn’t get a fucking trial at all?

Just because we don’t understand mental illness, does not mean that mental illness is not real. Just because we handle our shit and don’t actually kill ourselves, does not give us licesnse to persecute those who do, does it?

I want to raise awareness. I want to keep you here with us. I want you to stay a while because I love you and I value you. I pray for you and I love you with all of my heart, until you can love you.

A lot of people who suffer from depression are not going to be able to muster the strength to ask you for help. Help them anyway. If you can’t help them, at least don’t harm them with insensitive comments and ignorance. Don’t minimize their pain. Don’t dare them to do it. If you cannot help them, at least, for fucks sake, don’t harm them.

We must be the change. We must start to care about things that matter. We must learn to forgive. Forgiveness withheld is killing you, not the person you are withholding forgiveness from. Your inability to forgive and be forgiven…that is what keeps you here, and will not set you free. Forgiveness sets us free. Don’t we all want to be free? Don’t we all just want to set this shit down and stop dragging it along behind us? I know I am ready to set it down and to help you to set it down. I am asking you to help me to help him to set it down too and what about her?  We are walking each other home…let us not forget that. We are here for a reason, let us not doubt that. We are love. Let us always feel and know that. For those of you who don’t know that, I want you to know that I love you just the same. I really do. Take my hand, my weary soldier and I will hold you steady until you can walk alone again.  I’ve got you little buddy. I’ve got you!

I have added links below for the suicide prevention hotline and I ask you to share this far and wide. I ask you to remember a time in your life that was so bleak and so dark and that you feared you might not come out of it, and I ask you to throw a lifeline to someone else. We are all just walking each other home. Be kind and you will be right, every single time.

Let us all take each other’s hands and let us pray for peace and healing, for each other. Let us look each other in the eyes and love each other back to health and wellness. Take this moment now, with me, to flood our world with love and light, hope and peace. Depression is real. Suicide is final. Mental illness traps us inside and we can’t get out sometimes. In these times, be a good buddy. Remember the buddy system from elementary school? Always take a buddy. Be a good buddy.

If you’re thinking about suicide, are worried about a friend or loved one, or would like emotional support, the Lifeline network is available 24/7 across the United States.

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The Lifeline is available for everyone, is free, and confidential. See below for additional crisis services and hotlines.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

Nacional de Prevención del Suicidio

Options For Deaf + Hard of Hearing

Veterans Crisis Line

Disaster Distress Helpline

Text TalkWithUs to 66746

What Happens When I Call The Lifeline?

First, you’ll hear a message telling you that you’ve reached the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.

We’ll play you a little hold music while we connect you.

A skilled, trained crisis worker who works at the Lifeline network crisis center closest to you will answer the phone.

This person will listen to you, understand how your problem is affecting you, provide support, and share any resources that may be helpful.

Remember, your call is confidential and free.

Call Lifeline

Should I Call The Lifeline?

No matter what problems you’re dealing with, whether or not you’re thinking about suicide, if you need someone to lean on for emotional support, call the Lifeline.

People call to talk about lots of things: substance abuse, economic worries, relationships, sexual identity, getting over abuse, depression, mental and physical illness, and loneliness, to name a few.

Talking with someone about your thoughts and feelings can save your life.

Get in touch

Call the Lifeline

Call the Lifeline Anytime, 24/7

1-800-273-8255

Call The Veterans Crisis Line

1-800-273-8255

Today is the day…I’m off for my spay!

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Good morning! My blog site is down for some reason and I cannot seem to figure it out. So, to honor my commitment to myself, to blog for 365 days, I will use this page. Thank you for being here, and happy Tuesday!

Today is the day…I have surgery this morning! I am looking forward to an end to this pain. All of the prayers and meditation to wrap all of these little packages up neatly, to send them on their way, back to the universe, to be recycled for the greater good of us all, is coming to a close this morning, as I gently pull the strings to tie all of the loose ends up. I take all of these neatly wrapped packages and even the tattered and not so well wrapped packages, and with all of my love, I place them in my uterus, awaiting their return to source.

I want to say thank you to every single person who has loved me through so much. I can feel you and I thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for loving me. I want you to know that I love you right back.

This day, this spay surgery, this is my beginning. I have been strength training, literally, my whole life, in preparation for this moment…the moment I surrender, and let it all go. Today, I release all that no longer serves me and I say a little prayer of thanks for all of the lessons, for all of the blessings…I send them on their way in love and light, to continue to bless and teach our world.

We all have choices and we have all made bad ones, haven’t we? Our lives will show us…our bodies will remind us. We are the evidence of our struggles. We are the tapestries of our lives. We are human beings, being human…souls, having a temporary human experience…walking each other home. We are all in this together. I feel honored to be walking with all of you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

I want to thank Tamara for being here, right next to me, during the very painful and difficult journey I have been on. I love you my girl and I thank you for seeing Sam and I and for loving us in through to the other side. What a giant leap i have been anticipating, as I leave this hurt behind me. All of these packs I have carried, sitting here for good this time, as I vow not to pick them back up. This day, a day like no other, the last day of my former life and the first day of my amazing new life…a day like I’ve never known…a day for me to do the deepest healing and purging and releasing of my entire life. As I go under anesthesia for my surgery today, I invite abundant and monumental healing and clarity. I open a place inside me to release all of the demons that found their way in, along the way, to leave now. I invite any of your demons to leave me now also. As there is an opening for exit, without resistance or barrier, I invite the release of, for once and for all, of this pain I have carried my entire life. Both in my physical and my mental and emotional bodies…please release the demons and the hurt of a lifetime. At this time, please also release the demons of others, who have knowingly or unknowingly entered me. All that I have, all that I am, all that I am and all that I have been…I offer up now, to be cleansed and purged and refurbished and made whole again. And so it is.

I hope you all have a beautiful day. I must go and prepare for my surgery, mentally and physically, and mostly spiritually…so that I am ready for the good things coming when I wake back up!

If you are so inclined, I ask you to pray for my healing today also, for your healing and for the healing of our entire world. As I go in to surgery today, I place your packages in my uterus too. If you hand them to me, I will place them in there next to mine, and we will send them on their way. Don’t worry, there is plenty of room for all of us. So, go get wrapping and bring me what you’ve got! Today is a magnificent day for all of our healing, isn’t it? I mean truly, today, we get to set it all down and let it all go. So, let’s all get busy purging and bring to the table, what no longer serves us, so that I may carry it out today and recycle it for the greater good of us all!

My surgery today is the beginning for us all, of all of the good things coming our way. I feel it and I know it in my heart! We are all headed for great things! So grab my hand and let’s get our packages. Meet me back here with them and we will send them on their way together. And so it is!

I love you. I really, really love you. I am praying for you today too. I pray for you every day. We’ve got this!

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Umbuntu…

Good morning everyone! Thank you all for your amazing love! Truly, I feel you loving me and I thank you so much! Tomorrow is the big day and I am so ready for some reprieve from all of this pain and discomfort. The anxiety and the anticipation of it all has me pretty wound up and agitated.

So many text messages and emails and comments…thank you. Thank you. Thank you. My life, so private for so long, now not so much. My secrets, no longer secrets. My life and my fears and me…all on display, for all of you, and so I thank you for treating me with kindness and in love and light. I love you all right back!

I have an appointment with my primary and as many appointments with my own clients as I can fit in today, before I have to take some time off to heal. I have not taken more than a day or two off since I went out on my own. I’ve no choice this time. I must take care of me, and so it is.

I have a million things to do and an early morning appointment with my doctor, and so I leave you with this today and send you all of my love:

If you were not afraid of what you might not do right, what do you imagine could not go wrong?

Our fear of fucking up, of being less than it not good enough is why we don’t reach our heights. Our fear stunts our reach, doesn’t it? We cannot embrace the sky while trying so desperately to keep our own fears under control. Letting go is the only way to truly hold on to anything. Giving something away is the only true way to keep it with you always. Our hearts, in cooperation with, not in competition with, our minds, have amazing potential to change our world. We have power, untapped and unrealized. We have endless and limitless potential. We are just walking each other home.

Have a beautiful day today and keep in mind that each of us are fighting silent inner battles that no one knows anything about, so be gentle with each other. Be kind. Always be kind and you will always be right. Go out there and let yourself love and be loved like a verb. If someone offers help, and you need a hand, take it. If someone sees beauty in you that you cannot fathom, say thank you. If someone wants to hug you…realize that they are asking for a hug themself. My days of free hugs at random locations, that started because I was dying inside. I needed to be re-kindled…I needed my spark to ignite. I feared touch. I needed to be know I was here, and hugging all of you, unmistakably allowed us all to feel each other. We are all just walking each other home. We have much to offer, if we always offer our true and authentic, unconditional and unedited selves.

Go out there today and do it…whatever “it” is. You’ve got it in you, or you wouldn’t have any awareness of it in the first place. I am because you are. Umbuntu.

I love you and I thank you for being here with me, walking next to me. Have a beautiful day and go out there and love someone like a verb today!

A very special Thank you…to the friend who is making this all possible…

Thank you to everyone who loved me through yesterday and for all of the prayers and good vibes. you are all so amazing and I am so blessed to have each and every one of you in my life.

A very special thank you to one of my dearest and oldest friends, who is also a doctor, who is helping me to navigate my way through everything to get the best possible medical care, tailored to my specific needs around my trauma.

For many years, we have been friends and I have always cherished our times together, starting way back at church camp.

I could never have known then, how our paths would ebb and flow and cross again. I am eternally grateful that they have, as she is the reason that I am getting the care that I need…the anesthesia for my procedures and the referrals to the right people to make it all happen.

If ever there was someone that I could not possibly thank enough, it would be her…as, what can I possibly do for someone who does so much for me? Totally behind the scenes and making calls that I can’t make…finding answers I cannot find, to get me well…loving me like a verb.

So, to my dear, dear friend and sister, from way, way back…thank you, so very much for helping me through this and for all you are doing to help me to take care of me. I love you sister! Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

AIDEN IS HOME!!!!!

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AIDEN IS HOME!!!!

I come bearing wonderful news!!!! Aiden is reunited with his family!

After 12 days being away from his family and his medication and the proper food, Aiden came home this morning!

Aiden is part of a much larger story, which is not my story to tell. The police and the media are heavily involved and I don’t want to say anything that would hamper their investigation.

The important thing is that Aiden is with his Mom, getting all of the love and care he needs.

Aiden thanks each and every one of you, from the bottom of his little heart, for loving him home.

I also thank each and every one of you, from the bottom of my heart, for all of the love and the prayers….all of the shares and the support. Your love brought Aiden home! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

We must never, ever lose hope. We must never doubt the power of love. We must realize that we really are here to walk each other home.

Aiden says thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

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